so far the year is being a bitch to me. and so is this month. nothing nice happened and now I get to end it with exams.
maybe I lied when I typed that nothing nice happened. there’s only a few good things :
- Ethnic Day
- Sanja’s (my group) chilled by the pool.
other than that, there’s nothing else really. I know im stating that there’s nothing else when the month didn’t end yet but I know. im gonna be spending the last two weeks of March doing exams.
hope is slowly fading away. there’s nothing to look forward to; in my life anyway. it’s always problems here and problems there. there’s a 99.9% that I just make up these problems in my head, but that there is the biggest problem I’ve got. I’m tired of being alone, taking for granted, crying, hating myself. like what do you want me to do next. to feel next. cause I sure as hell don’t know now. I don’t know.
I miss david tennant as the doctor. I know he’s not real, doctor who and all, but I was introduced with 10th not 9th and he made me believe that there’s this thing called time and space and that the galaxy is so full of amazing and wonderful things and has thought me to hope in the impossible. whenever I watched his episodes, it takes me to a different parallel world perhaps? now, I cant keep re-watching his episodes cause i’ll get tired (got tired of some episodes I kept watching) and the 50th anniversary disappointed me because that was old doctor not the plot I was expecting for.
change is a silly thing. I don’t like it. but I got to get used to it when it happens. what’s the fun in life without it, right?
March 13th 2014.
so, I’ve attempted doing these so many times (having a proper personal blog where I write my feelings or events at), but failed miserably because I don’t update it after a long time and give up. however, I’ve decided to give myself one last shot. so, welcome traveler!
now, this cake. looks yummy. I know. but, not only that! I’ve ordered it for a special someone. my special someone. his birthday is in two days and I got him this as one of his gifts. (but I haven’t bought the other one of course; school and parents) it was worth to see that smile on his face. he looked as if he was a kid getting his favorite toy. im glad I went to school to see that, even if its only for two minutes.