a penny for your thoughts.
using ipod so i cant put the 21/100 thing on top but here i go. 
so today is when Good Friday. Jesus died today and i tried not to have fun as possible. but after mass with my family we went to this mall and ate. that made me happy. and i had ice cream two times and that made me happier (see that picture yeah first time trying it and it was amazing) but what made me the happiest is knowing i get to see my boy tomorrow. it was a miracle for his parents to allow him but thank God they did. i just pray there is no last minute changes to this. please. i need to be with him after so long agh i will lose it haha but yeah, today was okay.

using ipod so i cant put the 21/100 thing on top but here i go. 
so today is when Good Friday. Jesus died today and i tried not to have fun as possible. but after mass with my family we went to this mall and ate. that made me happy. and i had ice cream two times and that made me happier (see that picture yeah first time trying it and it was amazing) but what made me the happiest is knowing i get to see my boy tomorrow. it was a miracle for his parents to allow him but thank God they did. i just pray there is no last minute changes to this. please. i need to be with him after so long agh i will lose it haha but yeah, today was okay.

don’t you just get so mad that you end up crying out the anger? yeah I hate when I do that. I just hate it that you’re already so full of anger and then you just end up crying. well today is the beginning of my spring break. spending it at home, haha. even my birthday.
I just hope that one day I use these breaks wisely, going somewhere I haven’t been before. just explore because im tired of this.

20/100.

yesterday was my friend’s birthday and the fact that we spent it in school was pretty sad. but at break time, we were just eating normally, she brought a cake (cheesecake yum) and we just enjoyed each other’s company. after that, she brought this packet of chocolates with either strawberry or normal thingys on the inside and we saw they all had the same packet. so we thought it would be spontaneous to try it out and see what we got. we all didn’t want the strawberry one so we tried it out in fear, trying not to bite a big one. then the birthday girl saw there was a pink colored packet. which means that’s the strawberry one. and we all laughed so much, we couldn’t breathe. because while we were all seeing what we got she just picked it up and went ‘oops’. you know that 1 second silence before laughing out because your thoughts are processing? yeah that happened and it was really hilarious and I guess you can say the birthday girl made me happy.

I was bipolar today. I went back to school which made me want to back out and go home, although I was happy with my friends there. then, I was happy again in break time with the birthday girl and my group. however it became so low and sad after break time. I was quiet and not feeling well. then, I found out I didn’t get the marks I wanted for Accounts which bummed me way down. then at the end of the day, I thought I’d see my boy but he didn’t come which didn’t bum me out till after a while. I thought to myself is this a delayed effect of am I just really that weird. today was just a bust.

19/100.

so today my parents bought me this The Girl case for my Samsung and its the cutest thing. it made me happy because they took the time to buy that out of the blue even when they were mad at me. showing that they couldn’t resist me. and I like this case because it resembles me in a way (the reason they bought it) as it has the same glasses as me, the hair. parents. but in the back it was written, the girl and the boy. so my boy is here too. haha!

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im sososososososososo stupid. never had an encounter like this. never thought I will. but I guess everyone should have stupid, embarrassing moments happening. agh I cant even explain its so stupid.

so im absent again today. been absent for two days now, and im trying to think of an excuse because my mum will agree to write any. I know she’s cool that way. I don’t need to bunk because she allows me if I don’t feel like going to school. im just dead tired.

anyway, yesterday I was just thinking about friends, and how I don’t feel that any one of them appreciates me. I thought about specific people who I thought would be there for me. I thought about how I guess the world tells me im better off by myself since I have been often that way. no one talks to me, no one initiates. and I hate it when they tell others that they initiate and are tired of me. just tell me when have you ever. that’s another story. im just pointing out, these assumptions people make. why cant they just ask me infront of my face. why do they need to let go a good friendship due to assumptions. why are humans so stupid. why am I in this generation where people are depressed and people take things so seriously. this is just wrong. that’s why I feel im better off alone. because what is the use of all these people. they just waste my time. im tired of all the tears I shed for the friends ive lost.

all I have is my boy but even he is so jumbled. he takes life so seriously. when right now, as teens, we should just enjoy. because we’re all gonna be serious when we’re older. why cant it just be simple. why do you need to overthink things. I don’t even know. and everything is just common sense and you don’t even get that. I don’t even know anymore.

I am just so pissed off with my life, and where im living in. and the people that surround me right now.

18/100.

ive been delayed in my posting but I finally caught up. today was a failed day. even if it had its ups, it was mostly downs. (as usual) let me break it down to the goods and the bads:

good - the other day, our uncle gave us 100 dollars. today, we exchanged it, me and my brother, without our mother knowing, and felt like rebels. we felt like we stole something and liked it. this just shows how much of a kid we are on the inside. so, he spent his half of the 100 dollars, and I did too but I didn’t finish it all. had another starbucks today. three in a row and that was not healthy, but what can you do, I didn’t get any sleep through this extended weekend. oh and I missed school today to sleep. going to mass for palm sunday.

bad - we stayed in the mall the whole day and ran out of things to do and places to go. so I got bored and im very short tempered ( I guess) so I was cranky then mum started a commotion. my time of the month started today. they left today. he didn’t go for mass.

yes, basically. but what made me happy today was remembering a great weekend. seeing my relatives made me miss all my relatives. how I haven’t seen them in 7 years. nor talked to them that much. even when I spent half my life with them, it just vanished but then in a way theyre still there. its rather weird but that’s life.

17/100.

yesterday, we went to Miracle Gardens. and basically, seeing flowers in an artsy way was pretty amazing. you really get to enjoy everything around you at that place, I mean:

ostriches made of flowers? like how creative can you get? they also had houses made of flowers, even the Burj Khalifa! and it was mesmerizing to see. one thing I didn’t like about that place is how much they charge you. just when we were on our way to Miracle Gardens, once we got there, they had a fee on parking there. no its not your usual 5 bucks parking it was 30 bucks. yes, 30 bucks just to park a car. not only that but the entry was 50 per person. before it was 30 but now, 30’s the amount for parking. they really get a lot of money because a lot of people go there nowadays since its a famous tourist site. its just not fair how they treat its popularity.

before going there though, we stopped at Karama to eat. I only ate this:

its called halo-halo, a Filipino dessert. basically its crushed ice with milk then they put all those things on top then mix everything up! ‘halo’ does mean mix in tagalog.

then, went to Dubai mall again and all this commotion im too lazy to talk about. this day was mostly down sided because of a lot of things. but what made me happy is the flowers, which is weird. the day was a total bust, considering I didn’t get enough sleep and I had a massive headache.

hm so we were on our way home from abu dhabi and got lost, no surprise. we stopped and asked a random guy walking in the streets. he gave directions and we gave our thank you’s. while at the stoplight not far from where we spoken to the guy, a car beside us stops and had a word with us in the middle of the road. he was curious what we asked the guy and what directions did we need, we told Dubai and he gave direction too. it was very sweet of them. this just proved me wrong that not all arab are mean. let me make it clear that i didn’t think that all arabs were mean, just not pleasant or are ignorant, but that driver just proved me wrong and i loved that.

same goes to the gasoline stations in abu dhabi, the workers are nice and helps you with everything, and you can park on either sides; not like in Dubai. so it was nice to notice that difference and happen to like it, i guess.